So...not going to lie, after getting back to work and then the move from sunny Florida to frigid Connecticut I totally forgot I started a blog. Now with the crazy new house projects still going on (2 years later) and planning my wedding...I think it's a fantastic time to brush off the old blog. Hilarity will ensue and hey, cathartic rantings posted on the internet are WAY cheaper than a therapist. Definitely a bonus!!
Now that I'm 5 years out of college (where oh where did the time fly?) I've found myself getting more philosophical and just sitting and thinking about life. Maybe it's the boredom. I get up, go to work, bust my butt for 11 hours, come home, make dinner, crash in front of the TV with the other half, fall asleep before 10, then rinse and repeat. It's this awkward transition time - no longer do you have the clubs at college to keep you busy and help you meet potential friends within a decade of your age. Instead, I fill my free time scouring Pinterest for ideas for projects around the house! Which brings me to part two of the exciting life of a homeowner in her 20s - on the weekends it gets super exciting because we have endless housework to do! It's an awesome thing to grow up and buy your family home, but it's amazing how much more dust can accumulate when you have 2x the size house! I close my eyes and all the dust bunnies have magically scampered back in and multiplied! If only our student loans were paid off, then we would have the disposable income for a MAID. Then maybe I would have the free time to get some hobbies or get a life outside of work. Man did I not appreciate having an at home mom until I grew up. Maybe they had it right in the 50s, it would be AMAZING to come home to a clean house and a meal on the table I didn't make.
So yea...deep thoughts...20s just seem to be an in-between phase. Finishing up school (especially if you went for secondary degrees). Starting a career, but not being super settled yet - or maybe being on the cusp of a promotion to the next level. Either finding that someone special, or starting to make forever plans with the one you already found. Maybe starting a family - but if you are career oriented probably not yet. Feeling like you should probably have your shit more together than you do and faking it until you make it.
Not going to lie - at 26 I think I have less of an idea where I want to end up than at 21. When I first walked across that stage to get my diploma I was full of hope and drive. I was going to work for Disney, I was going to be the best darn engineer they'd ever seen and change the world. Five years later after being served a heavy dose of recession flavored reality, with a chaser of tough choices; I find myself not using my degree I fought for, working in IT of all places (by way of a marketing job for an online education program - figure that one out)as a project manager. This is that scary time again when you are looking down the barrel of the gun of your future and realize this path you stumbled on when you had limited choices, you might get pigeon holed into. You just might be stuck in the world of NAS, GPO, ERP, and a million other abbreviations you can spout off in your sleep you were happier not knowing.
What happened to the dreams you had? I'm starting to feel like my bed's half made and I'm frantically trying to make sure it feels right before the covers get tucked in around me. About that time I'm on a 9 pm conference call with China after a 7 am status call with the UK, and you have another 7 am call in a few hours, I stop and think "How the crap did I get here? Didn't see this one coming." I may be a grown up now with 2 mortgages, a 401K, a 403B, a car payment, professional certification, patents, and a budget - but inside is still the remnants of a little girl who just wants to run away screaming and just do something that makes her happy; and maybe find a Leprechaun with a pot of gold....you know, to pay the bills.
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